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Now this is pretty neat. A Linkbunnies reader has pointed in the direction of Free Public Domain Movies
This is a repository of all kinds of public domain goodies, including DOA, Battleship Potemkin, Fritz Lang’s M and, most excitingly, the 1954 Hammer “The Last Man On Earth”, the one true version of Richard Matheson’s “I Am Legend. Check it out, and be grateful for that 50 year copyright cap!

A Formal Announcement of Connubial Intention

I hereby post notice of my intentions to engage in an interlude of amatory distraction with you. Following are my terms:

1) an exchange of tokens, serving as a draft contract of casual partnership, will take place during the hours of 9am to 12pm noon, February 14th.

2) A further meeting will be scheduled to take place on the evening of that day. This will consolidate earlier discussions on the nature of the forthcoming interlude.

3) The interlude will commence at a time and venue to be agreed by both parties, but preferably to take place that evening.

4) Negotiations on future contact between the two parties are not covered under the terms of this agreement.

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Storytelling Week Continues… (even though it’s not storytelling week anymore)

I didn’t post as much as I’d planned last week, so I’ll try to make up for it with a couple more tales.
This first one continues on from the asylum seekers theme I ranted about previously. It was a final piece for a creative writing course I took in 2005, and has never been seen anywhere else. You lucky people.

“Freedom”

And here comes Marek, a shard of darkness in the golden, foggy haze, shouldering his way through the crowd. Sleeveless muscle top, tattoos aflame in the heat, his bulky, shaven head thrust forward on its wide neck, impassive in his knock-off Oakley wraparounds, all intent, all threat.

“The package, Islam.” A statement, not a question. Husayin flinches involuntarily, as he reaches into the jacket of his windbreaker for the thin manila envelope that everything today depends upon. He tries to stop his hand shaking as he passes it over.

There is a stillness for a moment, intensely localised around the two men. Amidst the roar and rush and tear of the Holloway Road on a Monday morning in May, they stand quietly, the giant and the slight, dark Muslim, focussed entirely on the envelope in Marek’s fist.

“This is everything.” Marek’s voice is a grinding of stones. “You’re not holding anything back, Islam. This is all of it.”

Husayin nods mutely. He’s usually a garrulous man. Normally, people will pay him to shut up. But here, now, confronted with this, silent deference seems to be the safe option.
Marek relaxes a little, steps back.

“OK, Islam. Don’t forget, the meet’s at noon. Yusuf will expect an answer. I’ll see you then.”

Then he turns and is gone, lost to the murk and the traffic noise. Husayin Canal, journalist, illegal immigrant, lost soul, watches him go, and wonders what he has done that Allah should feel that he should need to consort with giants.

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Dawn prayers, as the sky over North London took on a watery blue wash over a burnt orange ground, were said hastily and without enthusiasm. It had been cold. His knees hurt from kneeling on concrete through the thin layer of protection his prayer mat afforded. Husayin’s mind had not been on his devotional responsibilities. Instead, there on the roof of the squat at Campdale Road, while his compatriots slumbered in a ten-foot square room two floors down, he had concerned himself with more worldly matters. His wife. His son. His country.

Now, on the Holloway Road, with clouds wearing holes in the fine blue sky, and dhuhr two hours away, Husayin once again found his mind wandering. At home, he had known his position in life. He had been important, and people had listened to his opinions. No, people had paid to read them.

He had been the lead reporter on the one independent newspaper in Kajistan after the Russians had gone. He had striven for truth and integrity in all things, taking as his example the new democratic government. He winces to think of it now, the naivety. That he was not alone in his foolishness was no consolation. It was like a drunkenness, an intoxication. The very thought of freedom made his head spin, even now, being so close to it and yet so far away.

Better not to think of it. Better to concentrate on the job at hand, on selling knock-off cigarettes to schoolchildren and the elderly. Better to stand outside a dilapidated McDonalds on the Holloway Road, thousands of miles from all he holds dear. Better that than to remember the things that can happen when freedom is openly discussed in Kajistan.

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As the sun cloaks itself in cloud for the third time that morning, Husayin decides to stop for the day. Business had been slow, and would remain so until the schools finished for lunch. Besides, after noon, whatever else happened, he would not be selling cigarettes any more.
It is time, he decides, to see what was happening in the real world.

Sharmia’s place is cool, dim and quiet after the blast of noise and heat out on the Holloway Road. Past the cash desk, two rows of shabby cubicles rack back into the gloom, each with a stained old PC casting blue pools of light into the shadows. It’s still early, well before noon, and yet already more than half the booths are occupied. Intense young men with beards, pretty girls in burkhas, bent into the electric glow. The only sounds are the rattle of the keyboards, the hum of the mainframe. Sharmia’s is a café in name only. This is not a place for relaxation.
Husayin grabs a 30-minute slot from the stern matriarch at the cash desk, and finds a seat at the back. He logs in, and maps a circuitous path through Kajistani weblogs and message boards, using five different passwords, three different user names.

The news from home is grim. Four more mosques closed in Cosja, the capital, and his home. One firebombed, during maghrib. Twenty worshippers killed. He probes for details, a faint sweat starting on his brow. Women? Youths? Asir, his boy, was fourteen. A devout and serious young man. He could have been there, prostrate before God, as the flames rose.
Nothing. Nothing.

Finally, frantic, Husayin risks accessing the email account. A desperate step. He knows how closely the Christian Democrats monitor mail traffic. Just checking the account could compromise him, or worse, Soraya and Asir. But he has to know.

There is nothing in the main mailbox. Instead, he checks the junk mail. And there, under the header for Vigara (the choice of the potent Muslim!), the secret sign, the one he and his wife had laughed so hard over when they had set it up, a scant paragraph.

His heart leaps. They are safe. Finally, Soraya has complied with her husband’s wishes, the one thing he asked her to do as they were frantically throwing clothes into a bag together, their last moments together in ten months. She took Asir and got out of the capital. They are safe, for the moment, with Husayin’s parents fifty miles to the west. For how much longer, no one can tell. And finally she asks, again. The one thing she asked of her husband that frantic evening last August.

“Why are you still silent, Husayin? Why have you not told the world what you have seen? Where are you?”

Where, indeed. There is no answer to that question, because to answer it is to put everything he loves under threat. He is in a place where silence is the only choice. He is in limbo, the gateway to hell.

A hand lands firmly on his shoulder. Without turning round, Husayin knows who is behind him, and what lies ahead.

“It’s time, Islam,” says Marek.

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Yusuf smiles his diseased smile as Marek marches Husayin down the alley. If dental work could reflect personality, then ex-Colonel Petrovian’s seeping gums and crumbling bridgework would be an accurate signifier.

“Good morning, Husayin,” he says, as Marek hauls the smaller man to a rough at-ease in front of him. “I’ll keep this brief.”

“That’s appreciated,” Husayin says. “We’re both busy men.”

“Indeed. I’m not offering you a choice. You have none. You continue to do as I say, or I inform the authorities back home of your whereabouts. You work for me, or I track down and slaughter your wife and son. We understand each other, of course.”

“Of course,” Husayin says. In his pockets, his hands are trembling. Behind him, Marek is still.

“You’re wasted selling cigarettes. I have other merchandising opportunities for you. Much more profitable, for me, of course.”

Husayin is dumb, his world at the tipping point. He can only will for the right thing to happen, hope that what he has done prior to this moment is enough.

He has one chance, and it’s as thin as a single sheet of paper in a manila envelope.

“I’m not hearing agreement,” Yusuf says. “Threatening your family is not enough, perhaps. Maybe Marek can persuade you.”

Marek is a giant, so how can he move so silently? He is no longer behind Husayin. He is behind Yusuf, wrapping one hand almost tenderly round his waist. He moves his huge head close to the ex-Colonel’s avian features, his stinking maw.

“No,” he says. “I think before I do anything more for you, you need to explain to me why exactly you left Kajistan so quickly. Islam gave me something to read about you.”

Husayin starts to back away, towards the mouth of the alley, slowly.

“You forgot that he’s not just a refugee,” Marek says. “You forgot that he knows how to gather proof about the things people like you commit, and how to get them into the right hands.”
“Killing Muslims is one thing,” he whispers, “but using tanks in schoolyards, against children…”

He looks up abruptly, nods at Husayin. “Go, he says. You’re free to tell your stories. You can leave Yusuf here with me to tell his.”

Husayin turns and walks away, keeping his pace steady. Once again, the image of the Muslim school floods his memory. The tanks in a rough semi-circle. The small, bird-like man in front of the children. The girl in the burkha, yelling at him. The flat crack of the gun going off, as she falls in a heap at his feet.

At the head of the alley, he thinks he hears the sound again, behind him, like a car back-firing, the snap of a twig. He keeps walking, not looking back, trying, and ultimately failing, not to run.

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Storytelling Week Continues…

If there’s one sure way to get me angry, it’s to talk about “the immigrant question” as if it’s something that has a simple answer. Here’s my position: this country has been built, nurtured and inconceivably strengthened by the people that have come across our borders and called it home over the centuries. Whining about economic migrants coming over and “stealing” the jobs that no-one else wants to do, and “Queue-jumping” the lists for council houses which frankly doesn’t happen at a quarter of the rate that the Daily Mail would have you believe is behavior that will have me wordless with rage. And that’s not a good position for a writer to be in.
I wanted a simple answer to shove at the ninnies and blowhards who want to close the borders to asylum seekers. This was the best I could come up with. I wrote it back in 2002 for a human rights fiction competition, and I remain foolishly proud of it. It’s an alternative history (which are always fun to write) with a simple message – “walk a mile in their shoes.”

Margaret’s God

Ten more came in today. Three families, three little huddles. Mother, father, daughter. Son, daughter, father. Mother and three girls, triplets, none over four years old. Three families, all missing someone. A parent left behind, a child abandoned. An unendurable loss, borne as the price for survival.

As they came through the gate, I saw that the coastal patrols at Calais were up to their old tricks again. The families were damp, shivering and obviously starving. Rather than supply dry clothes and food, they’d simply bundled them into a truck and sent them down the bumpy mile-long track to Sangatte. I could almost see the Gallic shrugs. Let the rosbifs look after their own.

The mother and triplets left the group of newcomers. Uncertainly, they came towards me. The mother looked like a child herself. Barely into her twenties. Thin. Lank blond hair. Exhausted.

“Excuse me,” she said. “We were told there’d be food here. Dry clothes for the children.”

Her voice was faltering, weak. Wide, trusting eyes. I could say anything. It would be so simple. I could have her on her knees behind the supply sheds at the back of the compound in ten minutes flat. She’d thank me for it if I got her kids some bread. There are plenty of predators here, behind the wire.

I’m not one of them. She was lucky. I led her and the girls away. As we moved off, a couple of the Aldershot boys moved in on the remnants of the group. Their smiles were wide and toothy.

I didn’t look behind me as they closed in, and I made sure the girls didn’t either.

Like I said, she was lucky. There were free beds in the family compound. The Poor Clares from the nunnery over the road from the camp had come through with clothing. Old, sure, but clean and more importantly dry.

Better yet, our Good Samaritan at the local market had brought in a load of cheap lamb. Too close to the sell-by date for the public, but we were black-market at Sangatte Camp, and desperate. “You know what this means,” Colin told me. “Shepherd’s pie for dinner tonight.” Colin, who ran the kitchen with his partner Derek. One of the bravest men I know, the last man out of Canal Street before the Manchester Purges, enthusing about the simple pleasures of a meat and potato pie. The saddest thing was, I knew exactly where he was coming from, and the very thought of shepherd’s pie was enough to fill my mouth with juice and my eyes with tears. It’s always the simple things that spark it off. Shepherd’s pie. Jesus wept.

“My name’s Justine.” It was a few hours later. The sun was low and red behind the water towers. Colin and Derek’s wonderous creation was warm and solid in our bellies. The girls, starfished and dozing on our bunks were warm and dry for the first time in days in their nunnery-blue. The mother – Justine – had relaxed enough to tell me her name, and her story.

“We got out of Birmingham as the Purges were moving south,” she said. Her voice was low. She cast a nervous glance over at her sleeping girls, worried I suppose about them being woken to tales of an ordeal they thought was over. “The Renunciation Brigades were everywhere. They knew just where to look. Where the churches were. It didn’t take much to get the priests to tell them where to find their congregations.”

I already knew the rest, although I didn’t want to bother Justine with how many times I’d heard the tale before. The choice given to any English Catholic in the 22nd year of the Minister Prime’s rule was simple. Renunciation, or internment. It was a central tenet of the Thatcherite creed. All true-born and loyal Englishmen are Protestant. If your faith is different, well, then sorry, so are you.

And if you don’t worship like a true-born Englishman, then I’m afraid you can’t entirely be trusted. Better just pop you in an internment camp. For your own good, you understand. Nice places, the camps. Never a bad word said against them. In fact, you didn’t really hear anything about them. Quiet places, really. Surprisingly quiet, considering how many people they were supposed to be holding.

I came out of my reverie, realising Justine was still telling her story. The car that died on her on an isolated roundabout near Watford. Nowhere near enough money for trains, even if she could have found a service that was running. Hitching, then, was the only option, with three terrified little girls in tow. Sleepless, fear-filled nights sheltering in hedgerows as the patrols thundered past. Saving every penny of her pitifully meagre savings so she could hand it over to a French sailor at Portsmouth who said he could get her onto a container ferry bound for North Africa. Seven hundred pounds got her, her kids and six other unfortunates dumped in a dinghy a mile off the French coast and into a refugee holding camp just outside Le Havre. I didn’t need all the details. Like I said, I’d heard it all before.

“Be grateful you never made it to Algiers,” I said, when she had finally wound down. “The Africans don’t have any patience with English refugees. They hate the idea of infidels sponging off the African Free States. They don’t have holding centres. You’d be dumped in an Algerian jail, and forgotten about. I know it might not seem like it, but winding up here’s probably the
first bit of good luck you’ve had since you left Portsmouth.”

“I thought the French hated the English,” she retorted sourly.

“No, the French hate Protestants. They’re perfectly prepared to tolerate English Catholics as long as we sit at the back in church, and don’t sing the hymns too loudly.” I flashed what I hoped was a winning smile at her. “Look, you’re safe here. You’ll be clothed and fed. And you can start to build a case for you and your kids. The paperwork’s a sod, and you have to watch yourself at the induction hearings. But a lot of luck and a wheel-barrow full of patience should give you official refugee status in the protectorum Gallicia of the Most Holy Roman Empire.” I grinned, spreading my arms wide, trying to make a joke out of one of the most soul-destroying experiences on God’s earth. If you’ve never been certain of the existence or the banality of hell, then French bureaucracy will set you straight on the matter.

Justine smiled back at my clowning. A tired smile, but it lit up her face in ways that automatically added a couple of Hail Mary’s onto next weeks confession.

“You’re funny,” she said. “Were you a comedian or something? Back in England, I mean.”

“No”, I said. Suddenly I couldn’t find anything worth laughing about. “I was a history teacher. I worked in a secondary school in Lambeth.”

Justine’s eyes went wide. “You were in London. Oh, no. How did you … I mean, how could you…” She faltered to a stop. It was understandable. Not a day went by that I didn’t question how I’d got out before the Ring Of Steel dropped over the capital.

“I was lucky,” I said simply. “By the time the Renunciation Brigades began firebombing the outer boroughs, I was well clear. We’d had time to prepare, seeing the Purges coming down from the north. A lot of churches had banded together, formed a network. There are a string of safe houses we used, took us down through Surrey, into Kent, then the South Coast. A fishing boat put me in the tender and merciful hands of our French brethren, and it only cost me two thousand pounds.” I paused for a moment, fighting the memories down. “But I’d seen the clampdown coming for years.”

“What made you realise?”

“I’m a history teacher, Justine. I realised as soon as the stories in the textbooks I was teaching from started to change. Do you know there are people who think there was a free election in 1979? Because that’s what they’re being taught! People like me have spent the last twenty years spreading her lies! No-one remebers the Thatcherite putsch. No-one remembers James Callagan, let alone what she did to him on Parliament Green. There are kiosks in front of Portcullis House selling postcards of the gibbets she had built, and people think they’re just a tourist attraction!” I could feel the bile rising within me, the anger I’d hidden for so long boiling to the surface. I was fully aware that my voice was rising. I didn’t care. This was coming out, and damn the mess and the aftertaste.

“We’re scapegoats, you and I. We’re to blame for everything that’s wrong with England, if you believe her. We’re collaborating with the French, the Iberians, Rome, keeping England down, keeping it small and weak, squashing any trade deals the mad old witch thinks she’s made. Do you know, she thinks she’s got a claim on the Scandinavian oil fields in the Nord Sea? It went to arbitration, not that you’ll have read anything about it in the Sun-Times after the Svenheads confettied the paperwork.

“Same thing with the invasion of Jersey last year. A task force of fifty men. Against Maginot-built fortifications. I don’t imagine you heard much about that either.”

“There was something in the news,” Justine faltered. “A memorial service…”

“And who did she blame for that? Seditionist Catholics tipping off the French authorities! As if fifty men could ever had lasted against the Channel Legions! No, she scarificed those men so she could weaken the Catholic position!”

“Isn’t that a bit paranoid? You don’t think she’d plot against her own?”

“We’re not her own!” I was screaming in her face now, oblivious to the fact that her kids, no, the whole dorm, had been woken by my tirade. “She says we’re all foreign agents. She says our priests are all paedophiles. Our faith is one step away from witchcraft. We’ve been demonised in our own country, and when we try to find shelter abroad we’re either ignored, or they just think we’re after a handout and an easy life. They don’t realise, Justine, no-one does! What do you think goes on in the internment camps? Back home, we’re being murdered in our thousands, and it doesn’t even make the news!” I was dimly aware of the wetness on my cheeks, the hoarseness of my voice. it was too late to stop now.

“We live on an insignificant little rock on the edge of the Atlantic that hasn’t meant a thing to anyone since America went over to the French and Victoria died in childbirth. As far as Europe’s concerned, we’re just a crackpot island dictatorship with a human rights problem, and the only reason Rome doesn’t turn us away at the border is so that the Empire isn’t seen to be turning it’s back on needy pilgrims. If they thought they could get away with it, they’d fortify Calais and blow anyone who tried to make the crossing out of the water. They don’t care about us, Justine. We’re just an inconvenience. A drain on the welfare state…”

My voice broke, and I was in Justine’s arms, sobbing my heart out. I’d forgotten how much it hurt to cry. As I wept, the weak pale little mother cradled me in her arms as if I was a child.

It took hours for it to stop. Once it had, she asked me the question I’d been hoping for, and dreading.

“Where are they? your family. Did you leave them?” I looked up at her through red-rimmed eyes.

“They’re safe. I think. I left them with people I trust. A village on the Kent-Surrey border. A quiet life. Mary helps out in the post office. The girls go to the village school. And every Sunday, they go to the pretty little village church, and they denounce their faith, and they pray for their lives. To Margaret’s god.” Justine stroked my hair, and her eyes asked the question she couldn’t put into words.

“I thought it would be easy. I’d claim refugee status, then I could petition to have Mary and the kids join me. We’re good, pious Catholics. The Holy Roman Empire protects her children. I thought.”

I let a shuddering breath out. “That was nearly a year ago. I’m knee-deep in paperwork I don’t understand. Every form generates three more. Every meeting takes me back a step. And no-one I speak to, no-one seems to realise that today could be the day that the Renunciation Brigades make it to the Kent-Surrey border, and some evil little fuck with a hard-on for Maggie does a sus search on Mary, and finds the rosary she always keeps in her pocket. The one I begged her to throw away.”

My voice thickened again. “I’ve lost them, even though I know exactly where they are. Thirty-three miles away, as the crow flies. If someone built a bridge or a tunnel, you could drive there in half-an-hour.” Justine winced. She could feel the bitterness in my voice. A tunnel between England and France. What would be the point to that?

Night fell and I slept, fitfully, guiltily in Justine’s arms. I dreamt. I saw black container ships steaming across the Channel, heading for the camps. I couldn’t tell if they were coming to take us back, or if they were finally bringing our loved ones across the sea to us. All I could feel as I looked at them was the same mix of hope and dread that I’d lived with ever since I’d stepped on board a dilapidated fishing boat at Dover eleven months ago. And along with the feeling, the awful knowledge that it would always be there, twisting in my gut. Just as I would always be here at the camp, telling my tales, seducing girl after girl with my frantic little lies, filling in the same forms, waiting, forever, in limbo, watching for black ships that would always be on their way, but would never arrive.

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